Tannahill spent his week fluctuating between questionable salmon, good salmon, and French Toast Crunch cereal.
Illustration: Ryan Inzana
The creator and playwright Jordan Tannahill — his 2025 manufacturing, Prince Faggot, posited “what would occur if, just some steps down the road of inheritance, there have been a man who liked being a bit bitch in mattress?” — has spent the previous 4 years engaged on his new novel, The Residing Realm, despite the fact that it runs simply 160 pages. “It took me a very long time to write down only a few phrases,” he says, however that tempo was deliberate. “I ended up with precisely the e-book I meant to write down.” A part of the method was the final yr spent modifying. “Though the majority of the writing occurred a yr in the past,” Tannahill says, “you’re deep on the planet of the novel, and I understand I haven’t left it since I began.” This being summer time, although, he did go away it and go away New York (the place he lives within the East Village), which is the place we begin this version of the “Grub Road Weight loss program.”
Monday, August 17
I’d woken up in my tent the day earlier than with a really sharp, capturing ache each time I inhaled. I used to be at Honcho Campout, a queer four-day techno competition within the Pennsylvania woods, which I’d gone to the earlier yr and had such a beautiful time that I’d gone again. The ache didn’t go away as I went about my morning. In truth, it bought worse. I had breakfast, and after breakfast it continued to accentuate, so I packed up my issues. My buddy helped me stroll to the highest of the street. I discovered the closest emergency room, packed my rental automotive, and drove off for Harrisburg. They ran just a few assessments and stated, “You don’t have COVID, you don’t have the flu; it’s truly a bacterial pneumonia.” I believe it got here on fairly instantly. I don’t truly suppose I contracted pneumonia there; my immune system in all probability simply bought worn out whereas I used to be there. So Monday morning I get up in UPMC Harrisburg hospital. It’s my first time in a single day in a hospital, ever, and my first time in an American hospital. The very very first thing I’m ingesting is a gradual provide of an IV saline drip and an antibiotic IV. I’m additionally served breakfast, which is outwardly French toast, and I simply need one thing softer and less complicated. So I’ve a yogurt and a few recent fruit and a bit little bit of espresso.
Everybody may be very pleasant. As a homosexual man coming into an ER from a competition, I bought a number of questions — “When was the final time you had unprotected intercourse? Are you on PrEP? Are you seroconverting?” I guarantee them, “No, I actually don’t imagine I’m. I believe I’ve pneumonia,” which is what I had. It feels barely completely different from what I’m used to at Callen-Lorde, however they had been pleasant, involved, stored me in a single day, and did every part they wanted to do to get me stabilized. God, I hope I’ve satisfactory medical insurance to cowl this. I’m most anxious concerning the expense. Coming from Canada after which dwelling in the UK, which has the NHS, these aren’t actually considerations in any respect.
I learn Faggots, by Larry Kramer, within the hospital. Grove Press requested me to write down the brand new foreword for the upcoming anniversary version, so I’m reacquainting myself with the novel. The final time I learn it I used to be in my early 20s, and now, in my late 30s, it resonates otherwise. I hadn’t been to a number of these areas once I first learn it — Hearth Island, the Ice Palace, the Meat Rack — locations which are nonetheless energetic throughout the queer ecology that I’m a part of now in New York. I’m additionally basically the precise age of the protagonist. He’s 38 or 39.
I get discharged shortly, however I get lunch earlier than I do. I order the salmon, which is one thing my husband claims I at all times do: order fish on the actual place the place I shouldn’t order fish. I believe this proves him proper. I don’t know why I’m inclined to order salmon at a hospital, however I do. It comes out white, extra like cod, I suppose. Possibly it’s cod. I eat the thriller salmon and a few broccoli and a juice cup. The meals will not be nice, however the employees is beautiful and that makes up for it.
I’m discharged round 3 p.m., although it takes me about an hour to get my treatment from the pharmacy. I nonetheless have my rental automotive, so I drive myself residence to New York, perhaps 4 hours. I’m nonetheless feeling a bit little bit of ache once I breathe, however a lot lower than the day prior to this, and a bit bit feverish. I’m on plenty of ibuprofen, which helps. I do know my husband, Brandon, is ready for me at residence, and it’ll be pretty to see him and sleep in my very own mattress. Within the automotive, I hear to some episodes of Ezra Klein’s podcast. I get fuel, return the automotive — issues simply take time — and I’m strolling to my door round 9:30 or 10, after dinner hour. I don’t suppose I can eat a lot, so I’ve some toast and a few scorching water with honey and go to mattress.
Tuesday, August 18
Like a number of mornings, I’ve oatmeal with chia seeds, some grapefruit, and low. I’m a giant fan of Companions Espresso. We’ve got it delivered to our home in periodic shipments, and we grind our personal each morning. I drink it black, fairly sturdy. This week, Brandon determined to begin making his personal chilly brew. He purchased these cold-brew glass containers — you grind a rough grind of espresso, put it into this filter that goes down nearly your entire size of the container, fill it with lukewarm water, and go away it for 48 hours. We had been spending a lot goddamn cash on iced espresso this summer time that we had been like, “We should always simply make it ourselves.” Truthfully, it’s actually incredible. I’m a complete convert. I are likely to lean towards scorching espresso myself, however the novelty of creating it ourselves actually appeals to me. Brandon is certainly an iced-coffee man.
I stroll the canines as shortly as I can. They’re each rescues. One is form of corgi-like; her identify is Moses. And one is form of terrier-like; his identify is Charlie. They’re very goofy, very enjoyable. They’re Brandon’s canines, however I’ve come to undertake them as my very own kids, and since I are likely to stroll them and feed them, they’re notably hooked up to their stepdad. Moses may be very reluctant to be walked. She hates dwelling in Manhattan. She was a COVID canine for Brandon, so she spent her first yr in a quiet yard in L.A., and it’s been a really arduous adjustment ever since. Charlie completely loves strolling by means of the East Village. He loves to smell completely every part and mark every part. He’s a giant pee-er. I attempt to curb him because the indicators let you know to do.
My respiration is best, however I nonetheless really feel plenty of sensation. I’m coughing very incessantly, coughing up bloody mucus, and feeling ache. I run a pleasant scorching bathtub and sit studying Faggots within the bathtub. That helps. For lunch, I begin consuming plenty of white-bean-and-spinach soup — Tuscan white-bean soup from Westside Market. I’m consuming plenty of Lifeway blueberry kefir to counteract the sturdy antibiotics I’m on.
I’m actually dangerous at simply mendacity in mattress doing nothing. I am going a bit stir loopy. So I’m taking pleasure in having an excuse to not do all of the admin that consumes a day and simply writing for pleasure — enjoying round with a brand new thought for a play, which can grow to be one thing or could not. It’s nearly like enjoying within the lab, R&D, exploring sure photos, sure concepts, sure characters, and seeing if one thing catches hearth and begins to smolder. I do my greatest writing once I’m not additionally attempting to multitask, once I don’t have a number of social commitments. I’ve some honey-roasted pistachios and path combine as a snack whereas I attempt to work.
Brandon is a superb prepare dinner. He makes this chickpea-apricot tagine with minced lamb meatballs. He’s in tech rehearsals at evening for Marina, this play at Little Island by Julio Torres and Martine Gutierrez, but nonetheless managing to prepare dinner in the course of the day and have this pretty meals for me.
I am going to mattress fairly early, round 11, which is early for me, and take a melatonin gummy. I do know I might be on a gradual eating regimen of these all week to essentially knock me out and provides me a deep sleep. Very a lot appreciated.
Wednesday, August 19
I’ve a cup of espresso, however I want some extra protein, so I boil some eggs — two boiled eggs for breakfast with sourdough toast and a few kimchee, once more for the intestine biome, the intestine flora, which is being a bit ravaged.
Concurrently Faggots I’ve been rereading my buddy Emily St. John Mandel’s novel Exit Social gathering, which comes out in a few weeks. She’s an unimaginable creator — she writes literary speculative fiction, and Exit Social gathering may be very a lot that: a near-future America that has eroded and devolved into civil battle. I’d learn early drafts, so I needed to know what she did with it finally, what last kind the e-book took.
I take the canines for a stroll across the block. We dwell within the East Village. We moved in two summers in the past, and I find it irresistible a lot. I really feel like there are these frequent glimpses of an older New York, a New York of the ’70s and ’80s. After we moved in, Gary Indiana, a extremely significant author in our lives, lived a block away on eleventh, one of many final survivors of that technology that included Kathy Acker and the unique Village Voice. A block away from us on twelfth and Second, above the Village East theater, is the place David Wojnarowicz and Peter Hujar had their house. I stroll by that daily and take into consideration that lineage, that foundational queer tradition of the ’70s and ’80s. We’re a block away from St. Mark’s Church in-the-Bowery, the place Patti Smith performed her very first punk poems and Allen Ginsberg learn and the Black Panthers operated out of within the ’70s. Brandon and I bought married there a few years in the past. Though we’ve solely been right here a few years, I really feel more and more a part of this neighborhood, even of the actual house constructing we dwell in — understanding our neighbors, having a neighborhood right here in a method that I actually worth.
For lunch, Brandon very kindly makes a tuna salad, which is very nice — albacore tuna, inexperienced onion, dill, lemon, salt and pepper, mayonnaise, in fact — additionally with sourdough toast. Brandon is doing double responsibility: husband and actor. He performs three completely different characters in Marina, all three of whom are Marina’s suitors. Marina is that this mermaid-esque sea creature performed by Martine. It’s this stunning, very humorous, additionally fairly transferring trans allegory round love and relationship and neighborhood. I maintain joking that it’s like The Little Mermaid meets Below the Pores and skin.
I’m purported to go to a screening of a buddy’s movie. I’m actually gearing up for it, after which I’ve to message them: “I’m too sick. I don’t suppose it’s contagious; I’m on antibiotics, I don’t have a fever, however I’ve bought to remain residence.” So as soon as once more, keep residence and browse. For dinner, I’ve leftovers of the tagine.
Thursday, August 20
Breakfast is peanut butter and cut-up banana on toast with black espresso.
I do an interview with Adam Eli for Cultured concerning the e-book. He’s great, actually considerate. It’s my first one for the e-book, and Adam may be very affected person with me as I determine the way to discuss it. A novel is an intensely personal, solitary expertise for a few years, after which instantly it turns into this public expertise. It’s useful to speak it by means of with just a few mates first to get the dangle of it.
I’m positively feeling higher at the moment. On my stroll with the canines, I cease in at Apollo Bagels, the place I am going nearly weekly. My canines are identified by identify there. I get my favourite of the entire menu: a plain bagel, toasted, with smoked whitefish salad, mustard, pickled peppers, recent cucumber and dill, and pepper on prime. It’s open-faced. I eat it on the bench outdoors the store after which stroll the canines residence.
I additionally must deal with myself to some junk meals. I’m feeling a bit down, so I purchase myself a field of French Toast Crunch from the bodega. It’s completely scrumptious. I am going to the Strand and choose up an opening-night reward for Brandon. Opening isn’t till the next Thursday, the twenty seventh, however I hate scrambling on the final minute. I don’t have a predetermined reward in thoughts — I wish to go and be impressed on the bookstore. As I’m strolling to take a look at, I’ve two different books in my hand, each of that are presents I in all probability would’ve gotten myself, which is rarely the best factor to do. Then I noticed Lifetime of M, by Rachel Cusk, face-up on the desk, and I remembered he’d posted about desirous to learn it and whether or not anybody had an advance copy. I believe, Oh my God, right here it’s; it’s revealed already, I can simply purchase it for him. So I shelve the opposite two and get that one, plus a card and a bag. I additionally choose up a duplicate of Don Quixote for myself. If I’m going to spend so much of time in mattress, I want a giant e-book.
I am going to see a health care provider at Callen-Lorde. She listens to my lungs and makes me take deep breaths. They’re nonetheless fairly crackly. She prescribes me one other ten-day course of antibiotics and makes me schedule a chest X-ray after that to ensure they work. She will not be completely happy to listen to about all these errands I’ve been operating. “You’ve bought to behave like an outdated man. You’ve bought to remain in mattress.” I’m actually very dangerous at simply mendacity in mattress all day, even when I’ve one thing to do. I get too antsy. However she actually drives it residence, and she or he was the one actually insisting on extra scorching liquids and so forth. Once I get residence, I’ve some crimson grapes as a snack.
For dinner, Brandon prepares this unimaginable gochujang salmon — I believe it’s from a New York Occasions “Cooking” recipe, or he modified it from one — which actually makes up for the thriller salmon I had on the hospital earlier within the week.
Friday, August 21
Breakfast is the French Toast Crunch, which I’m nonetheless working my method by means of, ravenously. And occasional.
I take the canines to the vet. You understand how house owners resemble their canines and canines resemble their house owners? Charlie has been having this cough, nearly like he’s attempting to cough up a hairball. It’s like, Oh God, are we each stricken with the identical pneumonia? So I take them each in and have the vet look. They are saying the coughing is nothing to fret about, however Charlie does have a really minor an infection from a tick — the least worrisome of the attainable infections he may have from a tick — and he’s placed on an oral antibiotic. We’re each on antibiotics, each sick from being within the woods.
For lunch, I choose up rooster inexperienced curry from Pranakohn, one among my native spots that I am going to on a regular basis. It’s this nice Thai restaurant, and the inexperienced curry is simply the factor I wanted that day. I’m positively responsible of intra-neighborhood deliveries, however I’m attempting to get higher at simply going to the restaurant and selecting it up. It genuinely is 4 blocks away. So I do this this time.
For dinner, I prepare dinner myself Italian sausage and broccoli rabe. I’ve been counting on my great husband this week, however I do prepare dinner for myself generally and this can be a go-to. Brandon is rehearsing at Little Island, and — actually towards physician’s orders, I believe — I’ve to take the canines for his or her night stroll anyway, and I might love to only see how Marina is unfolding on the island. Brandon’s getting out actually late, and he’s ravenous by the point he’s performed, so I’m going to purchase some snacks, issues I do know he likes, for the stroll residence. From Westside Market: tamari almonds, pepperettes, Gin Gin ginger chews, black-and-white cookies — one among his go-to desserts — and Weight loss program Coke, which is his beverage of alternative. I put all of it in a bag, get the canines, and stroll throughout Manhattan, about half an hour, solely to be advised, sadly, no canines allowed on the island. I actually ought to have checked that one earlier than I left with them.
So I simply sit outdoors ready for his or her gown rehearsal to complete, and actually it’s pretty. I so seldom simply go to a park, go to a bench at evening, and sit and take a look at the water. And there are lots of people doing that — {couples}, teams of mates, individuals by themselves, simply sitting searching on the Hudson, chatting, listening to music. I’m holding each canines, who’re in all probability a bit confused, and listening to the incredible new L’Rain album — Taja Cheek’s moniker, simply stunning — and consuming the snacks I introduced for Brandon. Then he comes out, and we hug.
I’m defying my physician’s orders a bit bit right here, but it surely’s good to get out of the home. There are particular sudden rewards from being compelled to decelerate and alter your habits, and being sick actually did change my dietary habits. I often have a really, very energetic, busy calendar, and canceling plans felt nearly exhilarating — to only learn, draw a shower, and browse within the bathtub. That had its personal pleasures.
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